In astrology, your nodal placement represents your soul destiny and your past life baggage, and can give you your best strategy for being successful in this life.
I’ve been doing some work with my astrology to try and decide what it is exactly I’m supposed to be doing, rather than keep starting things that don’t work.
I’m sharing my process and findings here, in case anything I write might click on a light for someone else, but this article really is just me working out my own astrological baggage.
To start, the lunar nodes don’t physically exist. They are mathematical equations. Even though they aren’t celestial objects, the lunar nodes are worth paying attention to in the natal chart. Truthfully, they are among the most important things in astrology as they are associated with your previous lives and with the mission of your soul in this lifetime.
The north node represents something new to you. This is the direction where you want to go in the future. The life areas of its house were underdeveloped in the past, and now it is time to master them. The north node’s sign describes which qualities you have to develop in order to grow.
For me, that’s Taurus ruled by Venus so it’s pleasure, entertainment, money, beauty etc. And I, as a self confessed workaholic, don’t make time for any of these things.
The south node shows your past (both as in your previous life if you believe in reincarnation, and your personal past in this lifetime). The south node is where you are coming from, but there is no room for growth here anymore. You are very good at the things represented by the south node, so there is a strong pull to fall back in it.
For me this is Pluto ruled Scorpio, which represents the taboo, sex, secrets, manipulation, death and rebirth.
My nodal placement is North Node in Taurus (my 5th house) and South Node in Scorpio (my 11th house).
My south node is showing me past life baggage ready to be healed and released in this life.
In the past, people with this placement were often a part of groups. Being a part of a circle comes naturally now. However, in the past, you often gave up on your individuality in order to fit in.
People with the north node in fifth house are often afraid of being judged. Because of that, you choose to not to make choices, just do what the group wants.
I do this all the time and it always ends disastrously for me. Yet because I know this way of being so well from past lives, it is my natural course unless I choose something else intentionally. My south node in the 11th, though, tells me that in this life I am here to correct this. It is my soul’s destiny to do so.
All my life I’ve leaned into bringing everyone together then taking a back seat. My south node placement tells me I have to stop this.
People with this placement tend to be afraid of expressing themselves. This placement can indicate anxiety related to being judged by others. Some people with the north node in fifth house feel lonely, even though they are surrounded with people.
Check, on all of those!
People with this placement also tend to stifle their personality.
I do this all the time because I feel I’m too intense for people to handle. And that intensity is across the board, in my passions, my spirituality, my humor… I am a vibrant and intense person, and I’ve learned to keep that under wraps as much as possible, putting me at odds with my nodal placement.
Many people with this placement are afraid of standing up for themselves and prioritizing their own wishes. You are easy to downvote in a group of friends, and in truth, I’m most comfortable when I’m downvoted.
Reclaiming your individuality is key with the north node in fifth house because in the past, you were afraid of being different than your peers. Now it’s time to be who you really are.
In short, that means that I cannot be successful as just another part of a group. Trying to build the Ohana and magazine in a group setting was my downfall. I cannot be just one of the voices in my work and projects, I have to be the definitive voice.
North node in the 5th demands that I embrace my creative side! Any form of creative self-expression is very beneficial. Whether that’s painting, acting, arts and crafts, literature, dance, cooking. Creative self-expression is one of the best things you can do.
With my north node in the 5th, the house of pleasure, and my south in the 11th, I have to make my success based on what brings me joy and pleasure, and not through my friends or as part of a group.
That is not to say I can’t work with my friends, but I do need to take the leadership position. My friends can help me, but I can’t do equal partnership. I think that’s why guides are always saying, put your name on it, it has to have your name on it. It’s also why something like “author” works so well for me because it’s so entirely me.
In the other direction, my north node rests in my 5th house, my house of pleasure. So it tells me that anything I do that brings me joy, anything creative or entertainment will all bring me success. So I think I have the right idea, just the wrong implementation. I have to do this on my own, beside other people, but not in a group with other people… if that makes sense.
SAfire, for instance, because what I’ve created here is a house for anyone who has something to say and needs a platform, we’re all separate but equal here.
In closing, I think the take away for me is that I’m doing it all wrong.
I’m so invested in creating a group project so I don’t stand out. I’m invested in not making waves and not being weird… that’s all 11th house stuff, but I’m here to stop that pattern, to heal it and stand in my own spotlight… my own weird, freaky spotlight.
The only way I fulfill destiny, fulfill my soul’s quest, is to really come to grips with who I am, and accept that fully, so I can then put the real me out into this world and let what happens with that, happen.
And we all know, I’m weird!
I honestly love my node placement, though, and now it’s time to move more fully into it, to embrace this part of my chart, of my life, and see what I can become.
I think, on the whole, I can get excited about that.