Unthinkably good things can happen even late in the game. It’s such a surprise. – Under the Tuscan Sun
In 2003, on my birthday in fact, a movie was released into the theaters.
From the moment I’d seen the trailer, about a month earlier, I knew this movie would change my life. I felt it in me as deep as you can feel anything.
The movie was Under the Tuscan Sun, and it was my awakening.
I sat in that theater, on my birthday, and knew there was more and knew that I wanted it.
9 years after that, I found that “more” when I moved to Florida with a suitcase and $400, leaving everything else behind.
I say that often, not as a bragging right, but because I cannot ever allow myself to forget the faith that got me here. I cannot forget how good God has always been to me.
We’re almost 9 years from that moment, and the sum of these years are incredible, the absolute best years of my life and more than I ever thought possible.
I’ve experienced 3 and a half bitter betrayals and 1 amazing friendship that defies logic. I’ve gained a completely new understanding of God & the universe. I’ve experienced a million unbelievable Disney moments (seriously I didn’t even dream the kind of Disney magic I’ve lived). I’ve discovered renewed relationships with my dad and sister which I didn’t think possible and that bless me to no end. I’ve built a new family of truly incredible friends who make each day worth anything that happens. There’s been one complicated musician *eye roll*. And the Ohana, without whom I’m not sure anything magical would have happened at all.
I’m blessed beyond reason. I’m blessed beyond imagination. And most importantly, I’m grateful to the depths of my soul for all of it.
But now I want more.
In 2012 when I moved to Florida, having no idea if I could make this work or not… honestly not being able to see a way I could make it work other than God, I gave myself a decade to be where I wanted to be.
In 2018, I hit a level of perfection that I could rest on for the rest of my life happily. However, I’m me, and I think I’m meant for more, and though there’s a bit of an internal battle that’s been happening this past year in particular, I’ve decided to keep going. I’m trading what’s in my hand for what’s behind the curtain, if you will. I’ve decided to go for everything.
Because I’m a person that follows astrology, I’ve come to know myself better than anything and I feel like I can read my destiny in the stars, as it were. It’s the nodes of the moon, where the north node of the moon was at the time of your birth, that shows you your soul’s destiny.
Now, it’s obviously not that simple. You have to take that position into consideration with the rest of the heavens, your south node, the houses and signs they were in and so on.
For me, I’ve already fulfilled much of my destiny, but there’s this moment coming that tells me I can go for the bonus round. I’m destined for this moment in mid 2022 to mid 2023. A moment where the universe sort of takes a tally of what I’ve done and decides if I succeeded or not.
I don’t want it to pass without my having given my all to have it all.
What having it all would look like for me is having a great romantic lasting love, and living in Golden Oak. Two of the things held deepest in my heart that I obviously do not have. And yes, I know both are somewhat cliché, but they’re in my destiny and I want them.
I know who the man is destined to be. I met him not long after I got here. Guides told me about him before I moved here and they told me the month before I met him that they were bringing him into my life the following month. I know it’s him.
He is a story for another post, but suffice it to say, I’m done arguing and running from that. This truly is one of those when you know, you know moments, and I’ve found peace in it.
But Golden Oak… that’s crazy right?
We all know I barely make enough money to survive on, and some months, I don’t. And yet…
Let’s go back about a week ago…
My guides “arranged” by happenstance for me to see Under the Tuscan Sun again for the first time in years. It brought back everything, from being so dead inside, to the life implosion, to the move, to everything!
The following morning I woke up with a guide saying to me, I want you to paint the words Golden Oak in gold paint above the pig (a painting on my bedroom wall) where it will be the first thing you see each morning.
I was like, random. WTF?
Then just like my guides had done 9 years earlier when they brought me my first introduction to Golden Oak, a moment that determined I would move to Florida and follow my dreams, they brought Golden Oak back into my life. Only this time, it was only-god-can-be-this-perfect perfect.
You see, the guides told me back in Virginia that I’d live in Golden Oak if I moved to Florida. But I’ve never been all that focused on it because A money and B in all honesty, I’ve never wanted an enormous house. I like cottages and bungalows.
So this time when they brought me to the Golden Oak website… they’re building cottages… in Golden Oak!
Let’s give that a moment to settle in.
My dream of dreams is to live inside Disney. Has been since I was a child. I told everyone I’d live at Disney. Off course, for me then that meant Disneyland, but this is what I knew would happen. Even as a child, I knew. But I’ve been content in it not happening because those houses, they’re lovely, but none of them are mine… only, now, there’s one that IS mine.
Not only is this happening, but these cottages will be ready the summer of 2022, right at my nodal return – the moment that the nodes return to my place of destiny in the sky.
That my friends is what we call a S-I-G-N in all caps.
I’ve been praying from the moment I first heard the words Golden Oak that they’d build cottages or townhouses or something a bit smaller. About a year or so ago, I heard they’d finished building, and there was some sadness knowing that IF I ever lived there, I’d not only have to live in one of those huge houses, but I’d have to buy someone else’s house and nothing about that seemed to fit my dream.
Now I find out there are new homes in pre-build, in the neighborhood I always wanted (Symphony Grove)…
AND THEY’RE COTTAGES!!!!!
The other thing about this speaks to me of, is the Disney Company on the whole. You all know how disappointed I am with their greed and how it’s been harder and harder to find joy and magic there. I have been in the walking away stage for a couple of years now. I was planning a move to Punta Cana to start a Disney-free life.
That the guides are still pointing me at Golden Oak and Disney has to mean that this planetary shift we’re all in, turns Disney into something more magical and good than ever.
And that’s something worth believing in, especially in 2020.
I’m not delusional. I know how it sounds. I know how humanly impossible what I’m saying is.
But nonetheless, I’m declaring it today… by Christmas 2022, I will live in Golden Oak, and in the spring of 2023, there will be a wedding.
Now I’ve just got to work with God and make it happen.